SZA's album CTRL topped a slew year-end lists in 2017, for more reasons than one. Billboard Hot 100 entries like “Love Galore” and “The Weekend” aside, CTRL resonated with young listeners, as SZA sang about the universal woes that come with being a 20-something.

However, in a new interview with The Fader, the singer admits she didn't initially like her album or understand why so many people connected to it.

“I didn’t even f— with my own album, so I was so confused and almost, like, angry that everyone f—ed with it so much,” she told The Fader. “It meant everything I felt about myself was wrong. And it was just like, If that’s not the truth, then what is the truth?” She recalled receiving a text message from Donald Glover asking her about her thoughts on “Love Galore” when it went platinum, but she was still unsure how she felt about the song.

Despite her doubts about CTRL, SZA earned five Grammy nods for the album. She attended the awards show back in January and performed “Love Galore” but didn't walk away with any Grammys (her TDE labelmate Kendrick Lamar, meanwhile, racked up five awards).

“I’m not as mad as I thought I would be,” she fered. “I didn’t have any expectations, actually. That’s why I wasn’t super upset.” SZA added that people “place too much importance on the entire situation in general, and place too much importance on the institution.”

In a new interview with GQ, meanwhile, SZA explains that she was actually “mad as hell” that she accomplished so much and touched so many lives with CTRL. “I felt a shift. Like, I came a really long-ass way. I didn’t imagine this album doing much anyway. I was so grateful to even have been honored by being nominated and having so many people f— with my music,” she explained. “I feel like at some point you start to get sucked up into the accolades and you’re like, Oh, this is what this is about, and this is what quantifies my success or me as an artist or a human being.”